went for korean class this morning. ;) i'm learning grammer now! hahaha. hopefully i can continue till the end. and be able to speak like a native korean. LOL ok i'm just wishing alright? ㅋㅋ
it's almost a week after i saw Lee Min Ho. hahaha i didn't really missed him cos of school. :X oh well.
school was okay this week. i was good, i did my tuts. ^^
i'm excited about moving on to year 2 where i can join the korean overseas exchange programme. but i dunno if i can do this. i can't imagine not being with my family for a month, let alone years. or worse still, totally in a foreign country without any friends.
i know this would make me really independent and more mature (and i know that currently i'm not). and of course, wow.. a chance to actually live in another country, not for holidaying but for long term studies. in any way, i'm still looking forward to this next year and i wanna try out how's it like 'studying overseas'. :)
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i was feeling emo yesterday night, only Jas and Anqi knows why. :) i won't elaborate what i was emo-ing about. HAHA.
today, i totally changed my thinking. i read about something really shocking and unbelievable. the DBSK-SM lawsuit contract terms. then i'd realised this world is that realistic. it's all about money. fakes. lies. pride and greed. it's so scary.
the outside world, with all that politics. i dunno why i can actually live in this world. maybe cos i'm still young and i don't have to think about all that's going on outside my own world.
my SHINee boys are gonna face the same thing as their hyungs. Suju and SNSD are far worse off with such a big group in number.
on a side note, thinking about SHINee being so hardworking despite their contract terms always makes me reflect what is my purpose in life. they're all barely my age and they are probably doing things they've wanted/dreamt of doing. always, behind that smile... there's sweat, blood, tears and others i cannot think of.
then here am i doing nothing? they got a purpose and drive to work hard for. how about me. LOL. nothing. i'm trying to be inspired and motivated by SHINee. :3 i know i don't have a long-attention span (when it comes to studying). i'm lazy. i'm not smart, i can't study well. i don't have a talent (or rather, i haven't found mine). and comparing to SHINee (e.g. Taemin cos he's the same age as me), i've not achieved anything. LOL. sad.
i shall try harder in school and push myself to study. for the sake of OEP. SHINee please be my source of motivation, determination and perserverance! ^^ ㅋㅋㅋ
(lol i emo-ed then i got motivated. funny)
[edit] Onew-ah. i swear if you sing this to me i'll melt and evaporate to the stars. i get goosebumps and my heart's fluttering already.